DoitNow09

Anyone have any ideas? It has to be something I can make I cant afford those store bought cleanse kits.. So Ideas for cheap HEALTHY cleanse I could do?Thanks!!!!!!!!

Well I have been hiding. Put back on the 4 pounds I lost.. Luckily not more than that.. Did a lot of holiday fudge lately and went a lil over board. But Im not going to just throw in the towel because I messed up. Im back and Im trying harder than ever… I want to start my weightloss before the new year. I dont want to make it my new years resolution to start getting heathly… A continuance sure! But I must begin  no. I have a lot to lose and and a whole lot to lose it for…..   

Yeah halloween night, didnt go so well I ate a lot of candy! But I woke up the next day and sure was tempted a lot but I have managed to not eat any more.! Which is really good for me. And luckly we didnt get many of my favorites and I am picky about candy lol that helps too. Didnt exercise at all but I am back on track now! Gosh this losing weight thing is harder everytime I fall back a lil.

I was all amed last night that I was going to have a great food day and workout day today… Here the first thing I put in my mouth this morning was a reeses peanut butter cup, and a few peanut mms and some pumpkin seeds. DAMN YOU HALLOWEEN CANDY lol seriously, I should ask my step mom to put it somewhere else its just sooo tempting sitting on the kitchen counter, Its like hmm Im going to go get some tomato slices and low fat cottage cheese then I look over and IM like oooo Reeses! Those are my weekness. Okay but its still early Im NOT  going to make this a binge eating day… Not gonna do it, it started out bad but that doesnt mean to just say screw it and keep it up the whole day right? right? lol jeez I just need to stay out of the kitchen today!

Wow, I decided to start writting down everything I put in my mouth.. That alone is a good diet tool. It kind of made me realize how much I actually was eating because Id get up thinking about getting something to eat and the think about my list and be like wow I really dont think I need to go get anything or at least helps me make a wiser desicion since I am going to be writting in down.. Its hard but I keep my list with me all the time so I dont just grab something and forget to write it down. Its hard because I would probably just eat all day long and many amounts if I wasnt holding my self accountable by my little list. Just need to find something satisfying that doesnt leave me always wanted something else or more! I hate struggling with that

Results Worse than I thought… I am 286! Thought I was more in the low 270s means I gained some back a while ago…. Not any more! Next week when I weigh in there will be a loss! Because I am going to be fully commited to this… I suck at commitement though so Im a little scared, I am the worst for finishing what I start but thats part of what I am also changing from here on out! ……. I hope cant believe I am only 14 pounds away from being 300 thats scary… I rember thinking at 240 that Thats the biggest Id ever be… Well Here I go I! I set my mini goal to 240 so I can go back there and pick up where I should have started!

I have just been ignoring the fact that I really want to lose this weight. I have been away from a really bad situation that supressed me so much for 9months now! Thats NINE! Do you know how much weight I could have lost in nine months? Well no more excuses its time.. Im not waiting for the NewYear its now It may be late in 2009 but I have over 100 pounds to lose and I dont need to wait anymore. I am a single mother to my 3 year old daughter. I dont want her growing up with a out of shape obese mom. What makes me think that I should go ahead and have seconds? Its not because I am hungry, It just taste so good… I am done with that now!!!!!!!! Maybe If I train myself to eat slower and savor it I wont feel like I have to get more and more…. Why can I just have one bite of something tasty instead of feeling like I need to eat it till its gone? Theses are things I hope to fix. I have to. I hate being Obese. Depression got me here. And I am not that person anymore. I am so happy I just want a body and lifestyle that can reflect that!

Well thats all lol